i'm sorry..

i'm sorry.. for all the things i had done and hurt u more with my honesty..

i promise, this is the last time i hurt you.. i promise i will treat you like treasure and always keep you on the top of my list...

because i see the inner beauty of you, the kindness, the forgiveness and the generous..

you know what..

I DO REALLY LOVE YOU.. it's too late to say this and i may regret with all the decision that i had made but.... i just wish you can live happily and without me bothering in your mind anymore.... i dont ask for more as i just hope that this friendship can be last forever.. i really appreciate the friendship between us and wanted to take care of it nicely.. hopefully nothing will break us apart anymore.. few years of gap had gotten alot of my tears and regrets.. may the future be brighter and charm-er.. haha..

after this, everything will be bury in my heart and mind and keep me peace..

hohoho.. merry christmas..

merry christmas everyone..

long time din update my blog d..

busy busy.. this post will b a short one too just to wish everyone merry merry christmas..

i had a horrible christmas eve as usual.. hopefully can update soon.. exhausted..

chao..

MERRY CHRISTMAS.. ^^

My 04/12/2008 Thursday Rain...

suppose to be studying now but end up being here because I NEEEEEED TO BURST out loud...


okay, START...

i have sleep problem lately.. actually is quite some time d.. suffer T.T... everyday i get to bed at about 4am but I CANT SLEEP... i just close my eyes then slowly my mind will think alot of things and chase away my sleep angel.. i tried really hard not to think so much so i started to count 'goaty'..

1 zi yang,
2 zi yang,
3 zi yang.......

as i'm counting, my mind will be double tasking..

1 zi yang,
2 zi yang (tomorrow want to wear what to exam ler?),
3 zi yang (MPH very cool ler.. have to wear damn thick one..),
4 zi yang.......

what the hellll... how to sleep like this??


after few hours, finally i fall asleep... at this moment, is dream angel turn to visit me.. wau, she's really boring.. she visit me everynight, brings me alot of story that frighten me... everyday i wake up with a feeling like : "exhausted.. more tired compare to last night.. give me energy.."

so i try to googled about my sleeping disorder and suspected that i get insomnia (trouble falling or staying asleep) and the most common cause of insomnia is STRESSSSS... hmmmm, i understand.. exam coming..

talk about exam.. had my F9 today.. yoooohoooo.. 100% fail.. i went into the exam hall with empty mind.. even the question exactly the same as what i had studied yesterday night yet my brain failed to come out with anything.. brain stop hand stop.. blank.. depresssssss... okay nevermind, over already.. dont think about it anymore, just wait to die when result come out.. YEY..

so after exam i got home.. mom dint cook for me as she thought i'm not having dinner at home tonight.. she's so wrong.. me, a super stingy person how can i eat outside?? so i have to cook my own dinner.. look inside the fridge and get all my ingredient, let's cook fried rice bihun..

ingredients :
* fish ball cube
* ikan bilis
* egg
* leftover tapau thick soy sauce chicken
* rice
* bihun

yes, i mix rice and bihun together.. is in the fridge, so sekaligus cook it la.. the process of cooking just flyover la.. afterall i cooked a yummy fried rice bihun..

dinner time.. eat while watching BBT.. damn it, lucky i dint put too much concentrate on BBT.. there's a coakroach in the rice........................... DAMN IT, F*UCK IT, CAO ** BAI...

=the end=

car

my family got alot of cars.. the reason is daddy really like to change car.. really stupid right, 'invest' on car.. to make the condition worse, my dad like to buy secondhand car.. i guess is because of his business.. his business required him to maintain good relationship with the g***.. i guess everytime the g*** people want to change car, daddy will be the 'sui yu'.. is my guess only lar, daddy never tell me why his car turnover is so high.. haha..

everytime talk bout car mommy sure got alot of things want to complain because most of the cars in under mommy's name.. most of the time when daddy change car he wont change the ownership of the car to the new buyer but keep it under mommy.. so once in a while postman will ring the bell of my house, ask for a signature and you will know that's a summon for the car.. damn shit right, but daddy wont listen to mommy's complain.. again i guess is because of the g*** again..


so when we sell car, we wont change the ownership.. vice versa, if we buy car, sometimes we are not the legal owner of the car.. complicated right?? anyway, the purpose i write this post is.....

MY BROTHER'S CAR KENA STOLEN..


hahahaha.. i was wondering should i be happy or sad??

happy : petrol consumption of the car damn 'kau lat' and got some gearbox problem, mommy always ask daddy to sell it.. so finally it's gone..

sad : is under other people's name.. not sure whether he will pay us back the insurance $$ anot.. worrying..



whatever la... cant worry so much... hopefully everythings will be fine..

after so many crap, i haven mention what is the stolen car yet.. is a perdana.. it's gone.. yey... =(

i'm evil...

before this i was quite moody.. cause my mom offer me to jogoya with her friends... cawanmusiiii, tiramisuuuuuuu, coconuttttttt, ice creammm was waiting for me to get them into my stomach.. but toooo bad.. i already had my dinner... thinking not to waste the money with full stomach, so i SAY NO.. so sad, i really miss jogoya tiramisu.. T.T

anyway, just now my mom called me.. after the call my mood got 360º change.. from =( to =).. she said jogoya had already fully booked.... waaaahahahahahaha... ya i know i really bad.. but i dont care.. ^^.. i cannot eat it, no one can toooooooooooo...


from,
-the evil yen-

All because of stress…

I hate smoker.. really very super extremely hate.. it pollute the air and make me feel hard to breath when people smoke around me.. it’s awful.. yet, there is plenty of friend of my still smoke.. me full of curiosity go ask them the reason they become a smoker..

There are plenty of reason why people smoke.. it depends on situation.. here is the summary from my research..


Situation :: in secondary school’s toilet..
Reason :: stress.. everyone look cool while smoke.. cannot, I must follow trend.. smoke..

Situation :: I love you, but you don’t love me (especially guy)..
Reason :: everyday think why don’t she accept me?? I don’t good enough? What else I can do?? Stress .. smoke (good, blame on the girl)..

Situation :: exam coming soon..
Reason :: Keep on play online game, dint study.. end up feel guilty and stress.. smoke.. (what a lame excuse)

Situation :: social time..
Reason :: everyone around you smoke, non-smoker? Out of the circle.. stress, lose all the friends.. ok lah, be a social smoker, don’t ‘suck ‘ too hard can d.. smoke..

Situation :: running nose..
Reason :: initially start to smoke because of one of the reason above, later get addicted, end up dint smoke will get nose block.. my uncle always said ‘’it’s time to go get some fresh air, BREATH’’, mean he need go get some smoky air.. =.="


Conclusion :: stress make you become a smoker.. of course this does not apply to everyone.. haha..

Lately I heard a really special way to release stress… maybe you guys can take it as a reference.. invest your own way..^^.. a true story happen on my sis’s friends…

He’s studying in Australia.. stress… So one day he was studying, exam coming.. he was damn stress, scream around : "ARGHHHHHHHH… I cannot take it anymore.." go to his room, turn on his desktop with big wide monitor, watch porn with speaker turn on out loud.. after that all his housemate join him.. at the end of the incident, they stop the porn with a feeling of……… sien.. haha.. funny..

After all is a way to release stress.. I rather my hubby, boyfriend, son, any guy in my life lar, watch porn to release stress than smoke.. at least it’s not harmful to your health.. perhaps it’s healthy also and your partner is the one who get the advantage from it.. hahaha… abit dirty talk.. =)

2nd wedding of the month

Today is the last day of October (Baskin Robbin got 31% discount, MOVE..) and now only I want to post the pending September wedding month post.. haha..

Another cousin sister wedding.. got 2 dinner and one ji mui day to post.. this post will be pictures post.. nothing much to write as it’s already one month ago.. lazy..

Let me present to you.........

THE COUPLE

my cousin look so pretty that day..

JI MUI DAY

That day I missed the ‘play’ with bridegroom and heng tai session as I was stuck in the traffic jam.. so sad.. what’s the point to be ji mui as I missed the most excited part.. =(.. they really played the groom cham cham ler.. anyway, will straight jump to the bride had ‘married’ into the groom family..




The bride’s family.. jia xuan is sooo cute.. she is in between her daddy and mommy.. now you know where xuan xuan get her cute face har..




The sisters.. jia xuan posing like she's doing chinese kung fu..




That's me and my cousin.. we were the camera-boy-girl of the day..


here's some games to play with the heng tai..

• force them eat a bread that full of wasabi..
• tie a banana around the groom's waist and ask the heng tai bend down and eat.. tricky har..
• prepare a lip gross/stick, apply on all the heng tai, KISS THE GROOM..
• ask the groom to express his love to the bride..
  

DINNER 1 (BRIDE SIDE)

My sis and the bride.. the two 'gu' (cow in hokkien)..

The a-ma in black is my sis ‘nai ma’ (babysitter) and my half nai ma.. she don’t really take care me for a long time.. and very gam she is also my cousin (black shirt guy) grandma.. ya.. so his a-ma is my nai ma..

Jia xuan again.. she’s really hard to control.. the first picture she got slightly smile, later on her lips getting more and more thicker.. moody har.. still cute.. love her..

The sisters and their daughter.. so are we look like our mom?? i shud as my grandma to join the picture..

The sisters’ family with the couple.. and grandma is there too.. I’m so happy, I’m hugging jia xuan.. ^^

DINNER 2 (BRIDEGROOM SIDE)

I must give a bit comment about this restaurant.. they serve the best Chinese style wedding dinner food.. this restaurant is located damn near to my house.. RESTAURANT IMPERIAL..

Me personally really like this photo.. the couple were walking into the restaurant..

Again the couple.. this post is bout them sure got more photo of them.. hehe..

The session you will never miss during Chinese dinner.. KARAOKE.. lets sing..




To end this post, I present to you

THE KISS…………

~ the end ~