Tired of...

Everything!!!!! Nothing go smooth in life.. Tired with the struggling.. Tired with the tightness.. Tired with the stagnant.. Tired with the complain.. Tired with the changes.. Tired with the failure.. Tired with the happiness.. Tired with the worried.. Tired tired tired!!!!! Can I run away from everything and just be alone in elsewhere? Can I can I can I?????? Aaaaaaarrrrrgggghh... 

Just not as tough as I thought I am... 

An oppurtunity

A chance to have a change in work, in life.. Chance given, will I shine like a diamond? I got no confident at all, keep having the screw up mindset.. I guess the schlumberger interview really killed my confident, my ego.. 

Whatever..

It's not that I'm counting the small money but i only have rm350 for my food n entertainments for a month yet now u slowly eating that up too... It's not that I want to count small money with u but why today?? Why must it be today that make me think that is over limit, ridiculous, unforgivable?? I'm just hoping for a simple life.. Not a luxury one.. I can survive with AFA.. I can carry a no brand bag.. I can work extra hours plus tuition.. I can exhaust myself till mentally n physically breakdown just to make your life easy.. I know u will do the same.. But I just don't understand how u do, what u do and what u trying to do.. When u crying to me n ask for freedom, actually I'm doing to same deep in my heart.. 

Do not tell me life is like that one ma cause if it is, I think life is bullshit.. I rather eat shit everyday.. 

快回来吧..

这几天在发春啊... Lol..
开始不明白自己的心了...
是动了真情或是单身太久了呢？
宝贝，再这样下去，我就会失去你了..
失去想你的资格，失去爱你的欲望..
理智告诉自己那是不可能，但总是克制不了自己的眼睛去注意他，控制不了自己的心不去想他...

宝贝，我仍然希望会是你..
告诉我，能吗？你我有个共识吗？