craving for food...

its middle of the night.. i'm craving for food although i'm not hungry..

• chestnut (wan yong was right, chestnut = 栗子）
• pig intestine in klang town
• duck *quek quek*
• snowflake : cincau ice set E with taroballs..
• curry mee, prawn mee (been craving for it for long time but due to my skin i cant take it)
• lavender : yam cake
• japanese food : sushi king, zanmai, kinsahi, sakae sushi... anything..
• euro deli pasta.. or any pasta to say
• courtyard garden : black olive crustacean
• satay
• behind hong leong bank mamak nasi lemak
• la la jian in chi liung
• loh mee beside hin hua
• mommy's soup and longan desert
  

the list will go on non-stop... FOOD... =(
i must strike the list one by one.. FOOD...


lung said last saturday was the first time i join them for normal outing.. not after or before class outing.. i got so anti-social meh? haha.. i'm just kinda lazy to drive for entertainment sometimes, wana save petrol and the environment too.. hehe.. bout last sat, its only foosball then pool in AC, durian buffet in ss2, foosball and pool again in rack.. =.=

19.10.2009 Mon 3.52am Dark

I'M STILL AWAKE...

lately i had been really afraid to sleep early because i'm afraid of time.. if i sleep early means the moment i wake up it will be the next day, another day has gone, yesterday had pass.. but eventually if i sleep late i wake up late also, around 12 hours of sleeping time.. quite a waste of time i know.. hehe.. but im just afraid, i will find all kind of youtube to watch just to prevent myself from sleep, i dont want the day just pass like this because i have not done anything meaningful yet on the day, i dint satisfy with the day yet i never make the effort to let something meaningful happen.. =.=

this is me, this is how i run from reality..

everytime when i got any bad memory or embarrassed moment flash back, i will just shake my head and told myself : "seow yen, it's over and not important anymore, just forget about it."

very coward ler..

that's me..



another song to share..

陶喆 - 寂寞的季節



风吹落最后一片叶 我的心也飘着雪
爱只能往回忆里堆叠 oh~给下个季节
忽然间树梢冒花蕊 我怎么会都没有感觉
oh~整条街都是恋爱的人 我独自走在暖风的夜
多想要向过去告别 当季节不停更迭 oh~
却还是少一点坚决 在这寂寞的季节
艳阳高照在那海边 爱情盛开的世界
远远看著热闹一切 oh~我记得那狂烈
窗外是快枯黄的叶 感伤在心中有一些 oh~
我了解那些爱过的人 心是如何慢慢在凋谢
多想要向过去告别 当季节不停更迭 oh~
却永远少一点坚决 在这寂寞的季节
又走过风吹的冷冽 最后一盏灯熄灭
从回忆我慢慢穿越 在这寂寞的季节
还是寂寞的季节 一样寂寞的季节

it's my season of loneliness and i'm coping with it very well now..

13/10/2009 二 3.06 pm 晴

看完了还珠格格， 好怀念啊....
但让我更怀念的是一首歌 ：当

让我们红尘作伴活得潇潇洒洒
策马奔腾共享人世繁华
对酒当歌唱出心中喜悦
轰轰烈烈把握青春年华

多美的歌词啊，记得当时皇上听了也很震撼， 对我也不例外。
我要活得潇潇洒洒，共享人世繁华，把握青春年华。

加油。。

再加一个好消息， 棒棒堂回来了。
好high哦，又可以看到小禄发出的光芒了。



好帅吧。谁说小禄不帅的，我觉得认真的男人最帅。嘻嘻。

car insurance

AFA is back.. now he is handle with care by me, tears in eyes when i see it park outside my house.. finally i get back my freedom ^^..

here is something that i feel everyone must pay extra attention to.. is about car insurance.. it's not as straight forward or naive as we thought (bang then claim and done). there are lots of tricky condition that the evil insurance company had in order to minimize their loss.. im one of the victim which is also why now im so appreciate AFA..

my car insurance company is Pacific Insurance.. i not sure whether this applicable to every company or not but just a precautions lah..

i copy this completely from a Endorsements..

Endorsement 2(f) - Compulsory Excess

In the event of any claim arising under Section A of this policy, You are responsible in respect of each and every event for an excess of RM400.00 in addition to the Excess stated in the Schedule if Your Vehicle is being driven by the following persons authorised by You :-

(the english word not that bombastic but i found it hard to understand..lol..)

(a) Any person under the Age of 21 years.
(b) Any person who is holder of Provisional (L) driving licence.
(c) Any person who is holder of a Full driving licence of less than 2 years.
(d) Any person not named in the Schedule.
(e) Any person named in the Schedule who is less than the age of 21 years old and/or holder of a provisional (L) driving licence and/or the holder of a full driving licence of less than 2 years.

For the purpose of this endorsement the expression 'event' shall mean an event or series arising out of one cause in connection with the motor vehicle.

all my dear friend, please pay more attention to (c) and (d), ok..

unfortunately i fall within (d), not named in it.. long story about it because i thought my name in it.. please check your car insurance policy whether your name is under the authorised driver or not, if not, please call your insurance company and add it in..

so depress when i talk about this insurance thing.. haiz..

12/10/2009 12.25am hot night

i just made a decision plus action that make me feel better.. been thinking about it whole night, even purposely wake up to spin coin to help me make decision.. typical yen's way of make decision.. hehe.. but in the end the decision that i made plus action was totally opposite side of the result of the coin.. i don't know whether is the hint of the god or what, i spin it for 5 times, all the 5 times told me to take the harder choice.. i even change the coin, spin on floor to table yet still get the same answer.. erm, weird har..

so what decision that i had made?

i decided not to be super'girl' anymore for exam by taking 3 papers.. i chose to be more relax, drop one paper that i had attended for class for 1 semester then fail then later on chose to self study and end up fail also.. both fail with similar marks.. haha..

although i feel relieve about the decision but im worry bout the hint of god.. shall i?

11/10/2009 1.18am 晴

今天莫名袭来的一阵失落感，那感觉令我非常害怕，不喜欢。我想应该是应为考试又要来临了吧，所以心里的恐惧被激发出来了。

我感失落，最近发生了很多事，那都不是我心灵或身体可以完全负荷得了的，但现实往往都是残酷的，不是你说不要或累就不会发生的，厄运就像厉鬼那样不断的追逐着我的脚步，让生活过得像不够氧气般的喘不过气。可我也是个缩头乌龟，我拒绝去想，放任自己沉溺在自己的世界里，与寂寞作伴，有电脑与电视就够了。不幸的是世界不会因我的脚步放慢而停下来等我，时间不停的自我的发出 tic talk tic talk 的声音，连它都知道，每一秒都具代表性。

不写了，灵感走了， 但我知道，它不会就在此停足。
我的故事不能忘，我的失落不能放。

to be continue.. 待续。。。