...... smileless...

i declare today as the most unlucky and unhappy day in my entire 21 years life..

something really bad happen today.. the 22 hours before that everything is so peaceful but once it steps 11pm, my day totally drop from earth to hell, i feel like dying.. even after chat with ws, i feel like the end of the world ..

what will future be? what will the life be without him? i miss him really much.. i'm so regret for never show him how much i love him.. will i still have the chance to make it into action or words?

lohas is hard to achieve without him.. i just want him to be by my side.. no matter he will scold or nag me, i will just listen.. i just want everything back to normal..

i wish i can turn back time or everything is just a dream.. but impossible.. i started to hate the word 'impossible' now, i want everything to be possible.. i will not use the word 'impossible' anymore, cause i want (not wish) everything to be possible, there is hopes and chances around.. I WANT NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE, NOTHING, NOTHING... yes, i'm really emo right now..

Warning!!!!!!! not to bring any sad, unhappy, useless news to me.. i might burst anytime, tears may drop anytime..