Monday, January 26, 2009

2009 chinese new year resolution..

i'm lazy to dig out my 2008 new year resolution and i forgot whether i had achieve any of it anot.. should i check it? hehe..


so here is my 2009 chinese new year resolution..

  1. keep my mind peace and will not easily influence by anyone..
  2. be LOHAS..
  3. study hard hard hard..
  4. keep my room clean and tidy always..
  5. cannot cut my hair this whole year.. i miss my sexy long hair.. =(

that's all.. this is my new year resolution..


HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR
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Saturday, January 24, 2009

suprise birthday party..

tonight there will be a surprise birthday party for a friend.. suddenly, some memory recalled me..

i had a surprise party once.. the day before my birthday, he came to my house secretly at night and sms me that he is outside my house.. i'm so happy, cause we had a bad valentines day that year as i failed to meet him that day.. soooo disappointed..

he took me to a cafe with a group of friends and slowly wait for 12am with a cake with one big eight small candle.. birthday song was sang, birthday wish had made, happiness was around, with all the cream on face and hair..

that's the first time.. the first time my mom never called me at night to ask where am i, what time i will be back.. because he is with me.. first time i can reach home after 12, 1 or 2.. is that the 'an quan gan'?

i miss him.. shit.....

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

i'm a lazy blogger..

finally i'm here to write a full post not emo post because i'm influenced by wan yong and min ee as they just started a new blog and remind me of i had been abandon my blog for quite sometimes.. haha.. just to tell all my dear friends, emo is gone.. everything is slowly back to normal but as what i put in my msn personal messages "being hurt deeply and badly, it's hard to be forget and forgive".. wound is slowly recovering and turning into a scar.. anyway, it's better than it wont recover and forever bleeding like my stupid sensitive skin leg right?? remember last time i got a serious skin disease at my leg and hand? it's back.. i hate it.. it's so itchy.. is anyone interested to see the disgusting leg?? haha..

erm.. what should i post ler?? read back all my post, i mention before that i will post bout ::

* tiring Christmas..
* 2009 New Year Resolution

(it's never too late to start a new year resolution right? or perhaps i can make it chinese new year resolution?)


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Christmassss...

last year (2008) i had a very exhausted christmas eve..

the day before christmas eve, 23 dec 2008, had a buffet dinner at Neway One Utama with suet, wey and mindy..



took this neway toilet.. we really like to take picture in toilet.. =.="

so after ktv, mindy and suet spent a night in my BU house.. that night was a disaster.. suet got time lag as everynight she will sleep after 5am and the night was still early for her, so i chit chat with her the whole night until 5++.. quite exhausted as the next day i got to work and woke up at 8.30am.. 3 hours sleep.. luckily i still managed to wake up that morning..

so the beginning of the day of christmas eve i'm carrying a panda eyes and tired body.. to make my condition worst, one of the restaurant manager came into my office and screaming SOS.. had to help his boss to wrap 10 small cutey christmas gift for the 'STAR' reporter..



you may thought it look simple and very easy to wrap.. NOOOO.. you are definitely wrong.. it tooks alot of brain work of creativity and 1.5 hours to make it look so cute and christmas feel.. so there's gone my half punya half energy of the day (do you understand what i mean?? haha..)..

plan of christmas eve is to go cheras pasar malam wif my sis, her bf, and bf's brother.. will meet them in cheras as my colleague stay there and she is willing to drop me there as after work we had to send flower to Mid Valley.. another task that consume alot of my energy.. Mid Valley after working hour hour is most happening and jam hour.. we cannot simply stop car just to send a stupid flower.. so we drive into the boulevard as the recipient is one of the restaurant in there and god damn lucky we cant find the restaurant.. so my colleague had to stop her car near the exit of boulevard, i had to run around just to look for the restaurant.. finally after asking around i found it buttttt... the restaurant is not open yet, still under construction.. what the hell.. okay la, to end this story quickly, i can tell you the problem was solved and involved alot of running around boring thing..

finally, i thought i can straight 'chan' to cheras to makan d.. manatau another tragedy happen.. =.=".. my colleague's car was making some weird sound.. and we somemore joking that is me too fat or the flower too heavy.. manatau later on my colleague realised her car temperature high.. had to stop the car by roadside and wait for car tow.. 'suei' enough right??



Garden is just opposite us.. later my sis came and meet me as i had no idea how long i will be stuck in there as that day was christmas eve, car tow maybe stuck in jam or in xmas mood become very clumsy.. she brought her xmas hat alot.. so is camwhore time.. haha..



me and my colleague.. so optimistic right?? car broke down still so happy..

lucky the car tow reached by 8.30.. we had stuck in around Mid Valley since 6pm until 8.30pm.. from sent flower until waited for car tow..

lucky i still managed to get to Cheras pasar malam with all the jam and ate damn lots of food.. after that when back home.. called friend to pick me up after 20 minutes.. quickly bath and planned to wrap my friend xmas present manatau after i bathed he was outside d.. =.=".. not i'm slow but he was early.. so, no time wrap it and just gave it.. haha.. so not sincere..

so i end my christmas eve around 2am and end my day with a physically and mentally weak body and mind..

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chinese new year resolution

erm.. two days more.. let me lazy for 2 days la.. haha.. wiwwil

Sunday, January 18, 2009

damn u......

i'm angry.... damn angry... what the hell are you to judge all the girls?? what the hell you blaming me for using the word love? i can use whatever word i like.. i dont care what you all think bout me.. i made it damn clear.. i dint play feeling with anyone.. what the hell you are discussing with me based on my past? please dont comment my action of past with the things that happen to you now.. is it always too late to say sorry to someone???? sorry maybe no cure, but at least is better than no action at all.. damn it to you... DAMNNNNNNNNNNN.. good.. so now as you said even things are cleared, 2 people different sex cannot be to close to each other.. good.. i put that in my mind and keep a distance with you.. thank god for you to letting me know about it..

Thursday, January 1, 2009

me..

i'm losing myself.. sometimes i dont recognise myself anymore.. i'm losing my friends just to get closer to you all.. i'm tired.. i dont want to laugh just to make the environment more happy, i want to laugh out loud just for the sake of i want to laugh.. i dont need to be take care of like baby anymore.. i'm not little girl, in fact i'm actually more mature than alot people.. i never did anything bad to spoil the reputation of the family.. i didnt smoke, clubbing, gamble, drink or anything.. all i want is just let me go out and have a group of friends to hang out and chit chat.. is that so difficult to you?? why you all just like to control me so much? i cant just have my freedom? am i really such a bad girl in your eyes?


everything is too late.. they already left me.. i'm always alone.. and everyone thought that that's what i want..

again a sad new year..

happy new year everyone..

as usual i had a unhappy new year eve, beginning of a new year..

i doubt this year i will have a happy year cause i drop my tears on the beginning of the year.. not the tears of happiness but is the bad one..

why is this always happen to me? why every year i dont get to celebrate my new year with happiness and always full with negative feeling? why this year i cant watch the firework at the perfect place i want i stuck in a place that full of trees and block the view of firework just bcoz of stupid justin? why every year i don get to meet the person/fren that i really wanted to meet? why every year i jus failed to meet them up and countdown with them? why every year is jus has to begin with tears and sad?

i just wish i will have a wonderful new year with all my beloved beside me and give me a new year hug.. is that reli difficult to make my wish come true?

anyway, another bad year of yen is begin.. ready to take the challenge and fight with it..

i started to hate new year.. gonna do a new year resolution soon.. hopefully.. chaoz..