teeth extraction..

give me back my teeth!!!

i find life is different when there is a hole between teeth.. what is the different?

• cannot talk fast.. it will 漏风...
• food easily move around when u eat.. (from the back of teeth to front, kinda irritating)
• 24/7 taste blood..
• unintentionally will suck the lips when i breath hardly..
• cannot smile as there is a hole....
• have to jaga-jaga when i brush teeth, scare it will bleed again..

what i hate the most is the eat part.. it's really disgusting as i can't lock the food in the mouth, it will go in and out from the hole or sometimes, stuck there.. =.="

can u see the hole?

it will remain till saturday then both side will b the same.. i dont know how am i gonna to survive with 2 holes by then..

3 weeks later, see me with the braces... =)

hi april 2011

its my birth month which also mean is time for me to start looking for presentssss.

but this year, its gonna be easy...

i only wish for one thing..

i wish to have dinner with my family in kenny rogers...

been craving for kenny for months...

easy right? but sometimes the easiest may be the most difficult one..

anyway, as usual, may my wish come true...

i love and miss you much..

be the hurt one or be the hurt people one?

doesn't want to be the one been hurt, not necessarily is to be the one who hurt people.. it can work differently by purely loving yourself.. both are selfish but one can be more ethical than others.

why am i saying this because i have a friend who had been hurt badly for few times in relationships.. the lessons that she had learned from all this relationship is "i don't want to be hurt anymore, so let me be the one who hurt people, then people will not have the chance to hurt me.."

for me this is kind of cruel.. i really tak boleh balance from this statement.. how can you choose to hurt people just because you don't want to be hurt? its also really unfair to others who care for you.. do you really feel good by hurting them? making people experience the same pain as you will make you feel good?

i don't understand ah.....

its just a dream

dreams that we made while sleeping will never come true.. only wishes and hopes may have the chances to be true.. dreams work the other way round, they will never be true..

if you dreamt that you won a price in lottery, you will never get one in anytime soon..

if you dreamt of your love one confess his love to you, he will never do..

if you dreamt of the one you love is waiting for your calls, he will never be..

everything is just a dream that will not be true..

dreams are just purely a movie while sleeping..

its just purely incidents that you have been hoping for while you are awake..

its just purely you missing someone too much and end up dreaming of him..

how good if i can dig you out of my mind.. or at least let me dream of you when i do not have feeling towards you.. because all i have for now is only dreams; dreams that work oppositely in reality..

fall for the wrong one..

a fren said its very difficult for me to fall for a guy..

unfortunately, now i fall for the wrong guy.. everyone telling me that he is just trying to be friendly, yes i know and also accepting the truth.. i keep distance with him, im distracting myself from thinking of him, im persuading myself that whatever the god's hint, just follow..

i said its hurt and you may feel its ridiculous cause there's nothing between us, as clear as diamond water, how can it be hurt and how hurt can it be? my answer is super duper hurt..i can feel someone pinching my heart every now and then and i cry no tears.. i knew i need to end this.. wait, there is even no beginning, what to end? but my side already had its own grand opening, picturing that bringing him to meet my families, celebrating events with him, hold his hand, fall into his huggies, everything.. yes yes yes, its really silly to dream about it but dont ever forget i used to live in my own fairy tale.. here comes the punishment for dreaming..

i said its more painful that my previous relationship because there is a relationship to recall but as for this one is purely my one sided hand trying hard to clap.. there is nothing to hope, nothing to recall, nothing to end..

i hate it!!!! and i miss him..

犯贱的自己...

原以为把心里秘密分享会的到解放,

哪知道现在反而越讲越气,

越想越没道理...

但也因为如此反而更想念你.... =(

快乐是选择...

强颜欢笑很难.. 情绪的起伏都因他的回应而波动，实在是令我忐忑不定。

最近常问自己 ：快乐是选择， 那要如何选择快乐呢？

A 男是有感觉的， B 男是朋友...

A 对我没感觉，B 紧追我不放...

A 的一个小动作令我好奇开心，B 的关怀备至令我感到困扰...

同样的，A 的不理不睬令我伤心欲绝，B 的任何过错令我无动于衷...

A 的任何大小事令我情绪不稳，B 的大好大坏小对小错都与我无关...

是该选择一个对自己没影响的人或令自己活得像疯子的人?

是要上天堂的快乐, 下地狱的悲伤或要个straight line graph 的生活?

到底快乐的选择是什么?

理智告诉自己别过于执着, 但小小心灵的一个角落告诉自己真的很想他..

如此的反复不定, 我累了.... 但还是很想念他...