1 day 15 hours more left..

1 day 15 hours more left..

and i'm not well prepare yet.. =(

最高的浪漫

最高的浪漫 （季可蔷）

　　很难想象，一个人结婚之后，就一辈子对另一半忠诚，再也不会对其他人心动。

　　至少我自认为做不到。

　　别误会，我是很歌颂爱情的，也相信爱情可以另一个人的人生更完满，我渴望被爱，也愿意竭尽所能地爱人。

　　但只因为许下了婚姻的誓言，就真能保证一颗心永不动摇吗？

　　我觉得不太可能。

　　如果一个人在婚姻里从不曾怀疑过，不曾感到一丝丝挫折，那人不是伟人，是圣人。

　　即使没有第三者出现，婚姻还是有太多可能起波澜，理想与爱情能兼顾吗？自由与责任该怎么平衡？浪漫与现实总是会冲突，还有，日复一日地跟同一个人厮守相对，难道不会有偶尔感到厌倦的时候？

　　到那时候，一对夫妻该如何才能长相守？

　　在我心目中，理想的婚姻并不是永远和平，不是两个人永远甜蜜蜜，像磁铁般地黏在一起，而是就算争吵，就算冷战，就算生活里有许多小细节难以磨合，两个人依旧愿意站在对方的立场着想，为彼此各退一步。

　　就算意外对别人心动了，心里想的，还是那个在家里等待自己的另一半。

　　就算激情褪淡了，也仍愿意将对方的手紧紧牵着，在彼此最需要的时候，相互扶持。这种细水长流的情感，才是真爱。

　　恋爱或许是一时的冲动，激情是荷尔蒙作祟，但如果有个人，能让你放心的依赖，不论什么时候，什么情况，他都不会丢下你，这样的深情，怎么可能不是爱？

　　有人说，夫妻当久了，失去心动的感觉，那就不是爱情，而是亲情。

　　可我却认为如果亲情是一种不离不弃，那么比起爱情，我更希望得到“亲情”—使得，那其中可能带着责任的成分，但一个人愿意对另一个人负责任，那需要多大的决心和勇气！

　　那绝对不是冲动，也不干荷尔蒙的事，而是刻苦铭心的许诺。

　　那是与对方结缘，结一世的缘。

你认同吗?

太帅啦啦啦啦啦啦。。

again is my xiao lu..

小禄 - Gone + Sexyback (Justine Timberlake)





太帅啦................

haiz..

this is so sinful..

exam is in around 2 weeks time and i'm so mati in addicting to a game.. neither the farmville nor restaurant city but is SIMS 3..

thanks to my bro for bringing in the game at the wrong time.. ARGH... im so disappointed with myself..

haiz...

craving for food...

its middle of the night.. i'm craving for food although i'm not hungry..

• chestnut (wan yong was right, chestnut = 栗子）
• pig intestine in klang town
• duck *quek quek*
• snowflake : cincau ice set E with taroballs..
• curry mee, prawn mee (been craving for it for long time but due to my skin i cant take it)
• lavender : yam cake
• japanese food : sushi king, zanmai, kinsahi, sakae sushi... anything..
• euro deli pasta.. or any pasta to say
• courtyard garden : black olive crustacean
• satay
• behind hong leong bank mamak nasi lemak
• la la jian in chi liung
• loh mee beside hin hua
• mommy's soup and longan desert
  

the list will go on non-stop... FOOD... =(
i must strike the list one by one.. FOOD...


lung said last saturday was the first time i join them for normal outing.. not after or before class outing.. i got so anti-social meh? haha.. i'm just kinda lazy to drive for entertainment sometimes, wana save petrol and the environment too.. hehe.. bout last sat, its only foosball then pool in AC, durian buffet in ss2, foosball and pool again in rack.. =.=

19.10.2009 Mon 3.52am Dark

I'M STILL AWAKE...

lately i had been really afraid to sleep early because i'm afraid of time.. if i sleep early means the moment i wake up it will be the next day, another day has gone, yesterday had pass.. but eventually if i sleep late i wake up late also, around 12 hours of sleeping time.. quite a waste of time i know.. hehe.. but im just afraid, i will find all kind of youtube to watch just to prevent myself from sleep, i dont want the day just pass like this because i have not done anything meaningful yet on the day, i dint satisfy with the day yet i never make the effort to let something meaningful happen.. =.=

this is me, this is how i run from reality..

everytime when i got any bad memory or embarrassed moment flash back, i will just shake my head and told myself : "seow yen, it's over and not important anymore, just forget about it."

very coward ler..

that's me..



another song to share..

陶喆 - 寂寞的季節



风吹落最后一片叶 我的心也飘着雪
爱只能往回忆里堆叠 oh~给下个季节
忽然间树梢冒花蕊 我怎么会都没有感觉
oh~整条街都是恋爱的人 我独自走在暖风的夜
多想要向过去告别 当季节不停更迭 oh~
却还是少一点坚决 在这寂寞的季节
艳阳高照在那海边 爱情盛开的世界
远远看著热闹一切 oh~我记得那狂烈
窗外是快枯黄的叶 感伤在心中有一些 oh~
我了解那些爱过的人 心是如何慢慢在凋谢
多想要向过去告别 当季节不停更迭 oh~
却永远少一点坚决 在这寂寞的季节
又走过风吹的冷冽 最后一盏灯熄灭
从回忆我慢慢穿越 在这寂寞的季节
还是寂寞的季节 一样寂寞的季节

it's my season of loneliness and i'm coping with it very well now..

13/10/2009 二 3.06 pm 晴

看完了还珠格格， 好怀念啊....
但让我更怀念的是一首歌 ：当

让我们红尘作伴活得潇潇洒洒
策马奔腾共享人世繁华
对酒当歌唱出心中喜悦
轰轰烈烈把握青春年华

多美的歌词啊，记得当时皇上听了也很震撼， 对我也不例外。
我要活得潇潇洒洒，共享人世繁华，把握青春年华。

加油。。

再加一个好消息， 棒棒堂回来了。
好high哦，又可以看到小禄发出的光芒了。



好帅吧。谁说小禄不帅的，我觉得认真的男人最帅。嘻嘻。

car insurance

AFA is back.. now he is handle with care by me, tears in eyes when i see it park outside my house.. finally i get back my freedom ^^..

here is something that i feel everyone must pay extra attention to.. is about car insurance.. it's not as straight forward or naive as we thought (bang then claim and done). there are lots of tricky condition that the evil insurance company had in order to minimize their loss.. im one of the victim which is also why now im so appreciate AFA..

my car insurance company is Pacific Insurance.. i not sure whether this applicable to every company or not but just a precautions lah..

i copy this completely from a Endorsements..

Endorsement 2(f) - Compulsory Excess

In the event of any claim arising under Section A of this policy, You are responsible in respect of each and every event for an excess of RM400.00 in addition to the Excess stated in the Schedule if Your Vehicle is being driven by the following persons authorised by You :-

(the english word not that bombastic but i found it hard to understand..lol..)

(a) Any person under the Age of 21 years.
(b) Any person who is holder of Provisional (L) driving licence.
(c) Any person who is holder of a Full driving licence of less than 2 years.
(d) Any person not named in the Schedule.
(e) Any person named in the Schedule who is less than the age of 21 years old and/or holder of a provisional (L) driving licence and/or the holder of a full driving licence of less than 2 years.

For the purpose of this endorsement the expression 'event' shall mean an event or series arising out of one cause in connection with the motor vehicle.

all my dear friend, please pay more attention to (c) and (d), ok..

unfortunately i fall within (d), not named in it.. long story about it because i thought my name in it.. please check your car insurance policy whether your name is under the authorised driver or not, if not, please call your insurance company and add it in..

so depress when i talk about this insurance thing.. haiz..

12/10/2009 12.25am hot night

i just made a decision plus action that make me feel better.. been thinking about it whole night, even purposely wake up to spin coin to help me make decision.. typical yen's way of make decision.. hehe.. but in the end the decision that i made plus action was totally opposite side of the result of the coin.. i don't know whether is the hint of the god or what, i spin it for 5 times, all the 5 times told me to take the harder choice.. i even change the coin, spin on floor to table yet still get the same answer.. erm, weird har..

so what decision that i had made?

i decided not to be super'girl' anymore for exam by taking 3 papers.. i chose to be more relax, drop one paper that i had attended for class for 1 semester then fail then later on chose to self study and end up fail also.. both fail with similar marks.. haha..

although i feel relieve about the decision but im worry bout the hint of god.. shall i?

11/10/2009 1.18am 晴

今天莫名袭来的一阵失落感，那感觉令我非常害怕，不喜欢。我想应该是应为考试又要来临了吧，所以心里的恐惧被激发出来了。

我感失落，最近发生了很多事，那都不是我心灵或身体可以完全负荷得了的，但现实往往都是残酷的，不是你说不要或累就不会发生的，厄运就像厉鬼那样不断的追逐着我的脚步，让生活过得像不够氧气般的喘不过气。可我也是个缩头乌龟，我拒绝去想，放任自己沉溺在自己的世界里，与寂寞作伴，有电脑与电视就够了。不幸的是世界不会因我的脚步放慢而停下来等我，时间不停的自我的发出 tic talk tic talk 的声音，连它都知道，每一秒都具代表性。

不写了，灵感走了， 但我知道，它不会就在此停足。
我的故事不能忘，我的失落不能放。

to be continue.. 待续。。。

a song to share..

lately i really like to share songs or video.. no choice, life had been too boring.. nothing interesting happen.. hehe..




陶子 - 女人心事

东区的咖啡座　幽暗的沙发里
总有几张　熟悉的脸
那种聪明　带点防卫的气质
想放弃　却又不甘心的样子

越过她的肩膀　空洞洞的视线
摩登女子　灰色心事
那种以为　自己什么都可以
喝了酒　却又哭得像个孩子

我听见(爱我的人在哪边)渴望的泪
我看见(伤心的故事一遍遍)我的从前

曾经　我也痛过我也恨过怨过放弃过
在自己的房间里　觉得幸福遗弃我
如果　没有分离背叛的丑陋
怎么算是真爱过

请你　试着相信一爱再爱不要低下头
别怕青春消逝　就不信单纯的美梦
我在这岸看着你游
为你的坚持感动
你会的　有一天　会幸福的

is a really touching song that talks about anyone surely had some hurtful memory in their love life but no worry, if there is no all this memory how will we know that we really loved before? that's a prove of love.. but dont ever give up on love based of past because one day you surely will find your love one and live like fairy tale, happily ever after.

love ya..

first day : fail..

yesterday just told myself to handle thing calmly, take things seriously and control my emotion..
today is the first day and i fail myself kau kau.. just scream loudly in front of my mom although i felt that that's not my fault but i just let my anger out instead of listen to her nag patiently..

FAIL..

学着...

我要学着平复自己的情绪， 冷静心灵， 不要有太大的情绪波动， 更正面的面对未来的挑战。
这一个星期所发生的事，没人可以体会，没人能与我分享分担， 让我更明了我是多么的需要坚强面对未来。 会有更多类似或更糟的事会发生，我可有能力再次看到同样的事情发生？
他一定需要我的坚强吧。。。

我要冷静自己，时时刻刻保持平静，不易动怒，不易动粗，不易让情绪漂浮，自我控制。

accident

just met an accident and i'm really depressed now because it's my wrong.. 

blame on me.. 

emmanuel 我俩因主的爱相结合

was watching 鲁豫有约- 蔡少芬 张晋：幸福小世界

is about their love story and their wedding.. i'm touched by a song sang by the groom when the brides walking into the church..



tis is so sweet and meaningful..

immediately i googled for the song and found the title...


=Chinese : 有你終身美麗 ; English : Emmanuel=

是你的恩典终身美丽皆因你
沿路你带领双双足印翩翩舞
这生有你照亮因你爱动听
在你爱内承诺至终

Emmanuel我俩终生相爱不退后
Emmanuel我相信地老天荒
Emmanuel 纵物换星移我心不舍不弃
此生坚信完全因心中戒指

Emmanuel我俩因主的爱相结合
Emmanuel主的爱共证永不朽
Emmanuel似盛放沙仑眼中闪出璀璨
我愿意献奉这生无尽爱


hopefully one day i will meet someone and let me have the chance to give up all my love to him..

=)

blah lah....

oh god,

i dreamt that he come back to me..

this is ridiculous...

a date in dream make me so confuse..

in dilemma..

its 2.44am now.. later 2pm i got P3 class.. having a thought of ponteng the class because the class is in Kasturi from 2 to 9pm.. will it be dangerous for a girl to travel alone by LRT at night? thinking of it might be a bit scary but the idea of ponteng frighten me more than that..

is all about money, do i really afford to miss the class just for that stupid reason?

a) Yes, affordable if something will happen to me that night..
b) No, is really stupid to waste the fees of 6 hours class if nothing happen..

so how?

more excuse to support me to skip the class is i do have plan for the whole day.. will be visiting link in the afternoon and join koon's farewell party at night.. sooo in dilemma right now.. to get out from the dilemma, i used coin to decide for me and three times it told me not to go for the class.. is it a hint from god? i dont know.. when i really decided to skip the class, the little angel in me screaming to me : "6 hours class... really want to skip it? is daddy hard earn money ler.. really want to be pai ka lui?" grrrrrrrrrr...

haiz... i really dont know what to do.. i dont want to disappoint daddy yet i worrying of the hint of god.. GOD!!!! HOW!!!!!!

i always advise someone not to skip class for stupid reason purely for friends.. but when thing happen on me, i also have the thought to skip it.. lol.. took in the consideration of late night travel risk also la..

still dont know how.. =(

What's your personality love style?

i did this quiz and here is the result..

What's your personality love style?

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.




i think its quite accurate for me and friends may agree with the last sentence.. hehe..

3 short post..

ws said that i cant just forgive people so easily, people who did something wrong yet i will always defend for him.. not to say that i don't hate nor angry with him, is to say i don't want to use those negative feeling to influence my own happiness.. i had chosen to use a smile to forget his hurtful decision or act.. yet, the person's decision or act has to be under my limit, something that is forgivable, logic, or defend-able for me to convince myself that 'it's ok'..

the more hurtful it is, the more forgettable for me..

_________________

a baby girl was born on 08.08.09 10.++ am..

i guess she will be the cute little princess among friends, everyone will love her to the max..

welcome to the world!!! little princess..

__________________

bought a new sunglass..



sui bo??


p/s ::

do you realise?
1) my hair is quite long now but its not the length that i desperate..
2) i got more almost 3 months dint post my pic to this blog.. hehe..

down..

last thursday was my last day of work and also was the most depressed day : the day the BBT end..

i'm so sad, unwilling to let them go, not used to the life without watching them every weekday, not used to not to stay awake at the midnight just to wait for someone post the show, i miss them.. i guess alot of people especially my sis is clapping hand happily for the end of the show because i will not wasting my time on it anymore and spend more time to study but i feel something important in me is losing, the key thing that makes me laugh and now bringing me to the loneliness of life.. YES!!! that's how important BBT to me..

一日棒棒堂，終生棒棒堂

BBT spirit never gone and end..


anyway, the end of BBT also mean the beginning of something..

ALLY MCBEAL..

a series that i used to watched during primary school, i can still remember the time, every monday 11pm.. is a really nice series, is about a lady lawyer named ally who working in the same firm with her first and also ex bf which also the most love of life man.. unfortunately, his wife is there too.. then imagine how depress and stress is ally is to work in the firm and desperating for love..

is some way i feel that ally character is reflecting me.. there is one episode where ally had to defend for a client that being sued for fraud.. the case is about a husband sue a wife for married him not for love but money and desperation to marry because she is over 30.. the fraud is on their wedding day(3 years ago), in the bride's vow had a sentence that sound similar like this "you are the the man that i love the most in my life".. in fact, the woman had a fantasy for a perfect man and been writing to him in a book for 11 years, before she met her husband.. in the book she describe the day of wedding had been the most lonely day in her life.. eventually the hubby found the book and felt that the wife is cheating him for calling him the most love in life.. ally too, had fantasy of her dream man for a long time and due to the case she is emotionally down because everyone around telling her that there is no perfect man for someone, what you can have is only the one that close to perfect..

this make me depress.. i too had a fantasy, i always dream of that someday i will met someone who are perfectly created by god for me, my adam.. of course i am choosy also as i got a lot of requirement to be my hubby.. the episode broke ally's fantasy and also turn my dream into cruel truth.. is it really impossible for me to find someone that i had been dream of? guess i am fated to be lonelyen har.. hehe..

this is a so 'down' post..

orang jual ikan..

argh.. damn geram now, get to know three fishmonger.. selfish people and unfortunately 3 of them are my sister housemate..

here is the story..

a little strong (xiao qiang, coakroach) flew into the room.. my first reaction were ran to the toilet and let my sister do the rest.. of course i did help by screaming around and observed where did the little creature running to.. for me, if my housemate is screaming, curiousity will definitely come in and make the effort to ask what happen.. but the stupid cold blood fellows even lock the door and off the light to meet the dream god.. my heart broken.. =(


damn, i'm really angry now.. how can they do this?? just lock the door and pretend hear nothing?? i really wanna to cry out loud now.. there are really selfish people in this world, even a small favour also they are unwilling to help.. arghhhhhhhhhhh... i hate selfish people, i hate coakroach, i miss my klang houseeeeeee...


today also a unlucky day of mine.. firstly is i lost my double eye lid sticker so i had to go to work with a cat eyes..

later coakroach incident..

then i wanna bath, the water was brown yellow in colour.. i feel really ithcy now, hair and body..

lastly i had to use bottled water to wash my face and take out the contact lense..

bad day..

memory out of space..

my c drive is almost full d so i had to throw all those unnecessary things out of the space.. so when i looking through my desktop, there are few pictures that i wanna to post for quite some times abandone there makan i punya c..


tattoo..

taken this last few months.. we were in starbucks 1u study and this fellow when there zzz.. so i decided to kacau him by draw him a tattoo on leg..



cantik tak?? and this fellow still zzz sweetly.. he dint even move his leg while i draw..



as he tidur nyenyak. i decided to make it more colourful, blue love is lonely..



now got red and black love accompany blue, happy family..




banana pancakes..



my yummy banana pancakes.. this time i made it successfully, looks good right??
wei siong said yummy too, ^^..




yes, i can delete the picture d..

impossible dream...

i had a dream last night.. it made me refuse to wake up this afternoon.. the dream is about........

i pass a impossible to pass paper... =(

impossible..

just a short emo one..

miserable now.. i know is myself to be blame and guilty is all over me now.. losing the peace.. every call that i made now is exposing my weaknesses.. i never do this before and i wonder why i started it now.. something need to be done to get my strength back and is all depend on me..

i need a psychiatrist...

超克7 - 等什么

小禄 is damn handsome in this... i'm so excited when i watch this.. ^^
who will dislike him with this kind of talent.. I'm IN LOVEEEEEEE...


超克7 - 等什么 (MTV)




超克7 - 等什么 (BBT)




support support.........
i want to shake shake and move move like this.. yayayaya...
a bit tempted wana buy the album..

04.04.09

so lucky to have xuan and alex to sit beside me during exam.. ^^

noisy library..

isnt library is a really queit place to study? why i keep on heard people mumbling non stop? the effort to try to keep their volume low is not appreciate by me.. cause it was so annoying.... they should know that library is a silent world with only turning page, walking, sneeze, moving chair sound.. why is all this irritating human being doing here? walk around and talk to friend, discuss with friend.. what the hellllll?

lately i have been complained alot.. haha.. i stall stop complaining and continue my study.. slow progress today.. thanks to all those stupid human being.. =P

p/s : omg, library is so different now.. i mean the design not the user.. user i same as annoying as last time.. more than half year didnt step in here d.. hehe.

so sick..

i'm sick.. very very sick.. physically and mentally..

i look like mashimaro now with running nose and upset stomach.. this is making me weak.. tears keep on rolling down for nothing.. few sleepless night add-on mommy's black bean, everything burst out.. suei suei tomorrow i have my last revision class of f7.. how to meet people with this look?

mentally exhaust.. exam soon.. it is normal to have the study stress, i still manage to handle after so many semester of experience.. but now is not only stress for study........

relationship problem also bothering me 'kau kau'.. thought of hundreds way to let myself walk closer to you but never turn it into action.. i'm such a coward, cant manage to handle the feeling of afraid being hurt.. what can i do only will let you feel the care and love?

i felt that i had not truly laugh from my heart for ages.. i miss the happy-go-lucky me.. give me some times or extra hours.. i need some real rest, after exam..

hungry... (update)

850pm right now.. one whole day i only had a pork noodle, egg sandwich, a cup of milk, and a sausage... NOW I'M GOD DAMN HUNGRY...

waiting for the pizza delivery, online order... will the pizza come? why there is no phone call confirmation? almost 15 minutes pass away.. HOW?? IS MY PIZZA ON THE WAY??

hungry..

update..

yes, pizza was here.. now all in my stomach.. yummy.. ^^

got one happy news.. finally i cleared all my debts.. the best is still got few dollars to keep.. happy..

damn sunwaytes.. (update)

i miss my f7 edc today because i thought the class start tomorrow.. =.="

shit sunwaytes, i really hate them.. keep on change the timetable for nothing.. they thought the student so free everyday visit website to check the timetable? why are they so inconsiderate?

arghhhh.. i really hate sunway.. they made study difficult... =(

(update)

just got a message from my f7 classmate..

she said the timetable changed from 615pm to 915 class to 8am-5pm class.. they dont even bother to inform the student.. damn shit right.. keep on changing timetable without inform the student.. f9 like that, now f7 also the same..

irritating sunway..

受伤的亲情比失去的爱情来得更痛.........

我.. 要比以前更坚强....

告诉自己，别再麻烦任何人了...

泪水再次狠狠地落下。

我脆弱，曾是遇到情伤而变得坚强的自己， 再次不堪一击的受伤了。

苦苦的哀求在你眼里到底是什么？

天使是否真的累了吗？ 还是一直以来在天使身上都是在伤痕累累？

我累。。。。。。。。。。 天使更累吧。。。。。。。。

暗恋

one day four post, incredible..

暗恋也是一种幸福吗？ 没空间表达自己的感情， 只好默默的埋在心里会满足吗？好奇妙，感觉的产生一直以来都是因一个举动而打动我。一个举动就够以勾走我的魂， 奇妙吧，不是一见钟情， 而是一动钟情。刻意地不把感情表现出来，就算是一个人在房间，都想把它深深的埋在心里，是怕一触碰会更沉迷于它直到无可自拔。暗恋，真奇妙。

尽量的不把他的一切听进耳里，看在眼里，原以为那会慢慢的随时间而散，但无意间的看到了名字都能轻易的勾出藏进心里最深的感情。无奈.. 也痛苦却甜蜜。甜蜜于心里有个人， 痛苦于没能靠在他的怀里。

毫无交际的暗恋已不是第一次了。 什么是毫无交际的暗恋呢？ 就是与他人不熟， 可说是几面之缘而已，就算连MSN都没有。长得特别帅吗？ 不见得。 但竟能让我日夜思念。 记得第一次的暗恋， 也费了我将近三四年的思念与感情， 这一次呢？



光良品冠 - 胡思乱想

胡思乱想又过了一夜 思念的疑问并没有解决
我又胡乱想过了一夜 情感的东西是否需要感觉
也许我不知道 我是真不明了 人对情感的苛求是否那么重要
也许我不知道 你那儿最好 让我情牵忘也忘不了
也许我不知道 你真的那么好 我的思念你又明了多少
我胡思乱想



想念你的心是一天比一天更强烈..

原本以为， 这一切只是一场梦，但我竟然一直沉迷于它， 不肯清醒过来。。

陷进了， 惨了。。哈哈。。

gold bracelet..

mummy asked me to take off my gold bracelet just now.. reason is lately gold price keep on increase and robbery may happen anytime although is just a small not really valuable one.. this thing follow me almost 3 years already.. never take it off, now it's gone i might not get used to it.. maybe one day i look at my hand and scare myself, think that i lost it..

really wanted to refuse mummy but she was right.. outside world is so dangerous now, nothing happen now doesnt mean that future wont, better prevent it before something worst happen.. no where is peace right now.. *sigh*

my hand will be really empty from now on.. normally i have my bling bling bracelet and i love bling, i feel that i lose my character.. haha.. okay la, not so serious.. just don really like the bare hand feel.. guess will look for something to replace bling..

i miss my bling.. =(

Euro Deli and Pizza Uno..

life is so boring lately.. everyone is so busy to attend revision class and study for exam ..
the only thing that is interesting now is FOOD..



EURO DELI - DAMANSARA


Yen in Euro Deli.. this restaurant is introduced by WY.. she keep on praise of how good is their carbonara..



after ordered, they will served bread and butter as appetizer.. bread is soft and hot.. yummy yummy..


3 girls, we ordered ::

Carbonara

Wy was right.. this is delicious, yummy, thumb up.. big big portion with lots of ham and bacon(if not mistaken).. cheese powder can be request if you are a cheese lover..
RM24 (around there, cant really remember)


Pork Chop

they serve pork.. it's hard to find a non halal western restaurant in Malaysia yet i always crave for pork.. but this chop is okay okay for me.. the mash potato taste very milky, KFC will be better.. also a big big portion dish..
RM24 (also around there)..


rate :: 5 stars..
reason :: serve pork, big portion, 3 ppl 2 dish full enough, price is quite reasonable..


PIZZA UNO - CENTRE POINT


menu.. the cake look nice.. according to my sister, their strawberry cheesecake is good..


coffee with love..


whole fried spring chicken

with garlic lemon gravy,i hate garlic so i dont like it.. chicken is okay but the meat are bit too chewy for me.. guess the chicken do run around..
RM30+


carbonara

, yummy yummy.. cheese powder can be request too but not the gravy.. extra gravy charge extra RM2.. not worth it, as extra grave make the carbonara too milky and sticky (or probably due to wy add too much cheese)..
RM24


baked pasta

I LIKE IT.. some bakey cheese and mushroom taste like heaven.. gravy is just nice and the only thing i hate is lots of onion..
RM24


rate :: 3 stars
reason :: food is yummy but abit pricey with normal portion (cannot share), halal..

my 21st surprise birthday party..

it's time to post my birthday post.. it's pending for too long already, even my brother birthday had past and my sis birthday is coming soon after four days yet i haven post it yet.. lazy lazy blogger..

so just a brief story about it..


* the day before the day *

lung messaged me ::

lung :: want to hang out after class?? after class tomorrow..
yen :: tomolo after class aredi 9 le, where to hang le?
lung :: got place de la.. no worry..
yen :: o.. u kaki malam.. u decide lo.. hehe..

yes, so we suppose to ''hang out'' tomorrow after class..


* the day - after class *

lung told us that he had to go back to Kemuning first before hang out cause Hong left something in his house and need it immediately.. before that i'm very 'kap kap', need to use to bathroom.. but due to lung showed a very rush face, so i thought tahan until his house then only straight fly to the bathroom..

finally we were there and still i very kap, lung house got no electricity..

no electric = no autogate
no autogate = climb in and manual open gate

after all the gate thing and drive the car into the house, it took too much times and i really super cannot tahan.. once open house door and on the electricity, i straight run to the bathroom..

as i'm closing the door of the bathroom, i heard something..

"happy birthday to............."

=.="..

it was a surprise party and the birthday girl was in the toilet.. before i did my private business i went out laugh at them then close the door, do my business..



the birthday cake and birthday girls.. j'ny's birthday is 3 days after me, so we celebrate together.. ^^

see how big my mouth is and the kena cream face..



ben, peter, lung, hong.. too bad richy not there.. =(



j'ny, flora, wy, zwen/nana


i had a funny birthday this year..

started with ::


PRETTY PETER

i saw peter was sleeping.. dirty idea come to my mind and do some simple make-up.. i got asked permission for peter one lor, he said ok cause when i wanna to drop the eye shadow i laughed..

the results ::

captain jack sparrow/aladin/bau qing tian , ah gua..


they love each other.. sweet.. omg, 18sx please..


I'M TALL


whoever said that i'm short, na... i can touch the ceiling..


with ben help.. =(.. the one who challenge me had to carry me..


MALE vs FEMALE - xBOX


the real battle is not that peaceful.. later on all the girls with fight with the guy that holding the controller to stop them from pressing it.. then the other guy will also stop the girls from stopping the guy..

and because of the fighting, lung accidentally hurt wan yong.. due to that, another memorable things happen..


CC LUNG
to distract wan yong from the pain, lung ''offered'' himself to.......

wear skirt.. ^^



that's all? NO WAY!!!! LETS MAKE IT SEXIERRRR..




ok, i dowan to show lung's face.. still have to take care of his facey.. hehe
by the way, those boobs are made by socks.. hot right?


SCRABBLE

we end the day with scrabble.. accidentally found it in lung's sister room..



me and peter one group.. we were so lucky cause keep on get some nice words.. the most tragic was....



'GAY ROOM'...


the end..

p/s :: really had a funny birthday.. again thanks to everyone..

...... smileless...

i declare today as the most unlucky and unhappy day in my entire 21 years life..

something really bad happen today.. the 22 hours before that everything is so peaceful but once it steps 11pm, my day totally drop from earth to hell, i feel like dying.. even after chat with ws, i feel like the end of the world ..

what will future be? what will the life be without him? i miss him really much.. i'm so regret for never show him how much i love him.. will i still have the chance to make it into action or words?

lohas is hard to achieve without him.. i just want him to be by my side.. no matter he will scold or nag me, i will just listen.. i just want everything back to normal..

i wish i can turn back time or everything is just a dream.. but impossible.. i started to hate the word 'impossible' now, i want everything to be possible.. i will not use the word 'impossible' anymore, cause i want (not wish) everything to be possible, there is hopes and chances around.. I WANT NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE, NOTHING, NOTHING... yes, i'm really emo right now..

Warning!!!!!!! not to bring any sad, unhappy, useless news to me.. i might burst anytime, tears may drop anytime..

最遥远的距离。。

"世界上最遥远的距离不是生与死, 而是最亲密的两人不知彼此的心理"

为何会如此呢? 明明曾是如此的相爱, 不理会任何人的反对的认定对方, 为何如今互相计较, 互相伤害呢? 难道当初的海誓山盟是因景而胡乱出口的一片谎言?

早知如此, 我宁愿是天地两分, 胜过站在原地等你的无止境伤害..

受伤害了,该怎么去疗伤呢? 情绪混乱, 该怎么得到平静呢? 快乐到底是什么呢? 真真的快乐, 曾有过吗?

我想像小孩一样, 依赖着肩膀, 你曾像天使一样给我依赖, 给我力量, 你曾是我最初和最后的天堂, 但现在还是吗? 你是否还愿意让我放肆的依赖依靠?

punishment from god..

it's so hot.. no matter is day or night, i dont feel the decrease of temperature, sweat non stop.. even the water in the refrigerator not as cold as usual.. is this the punishment from the god towards malaysian for not being so participated in the "off the light 60 minutes"? i was wondering if 28th of March we do off the light, will it be different? neh, probably wont.. it's just natural.. after raining season, here come the hot one.. it just that this year is extraordinary hot..


i wish i got class.. damn the timetable for allocate the only week holiday on such a hot week.. or else now i will be in the class enjoy the cool air, wearing my cardigan, wrap myself like a 'ba zang' and listen to the lecture.. at least it is heaven of hell, unlike now.. hell in heaven.. damn hot..


praying for the rain, please.. LOHAS..


**little thought from me
when you close your eyes, being in the dark, is there anyone or anything come to your mind?
of course other than family.. it's quite depress to say that no one and nothing for me.. i live my life to the fullest dull..


and yesterday i dreamt of him again.. again is a really surprise sweet dream.. is there any possibility the dream comes true? i doubt it, sweet dream never comes true.. =(

look!!! lung is zzz...

see how cute is our little ''prince-ss'' zzz in the car..

and in the class..

isnt ''s-he'' adorable???

the day tak da electricity at home (update with pics)..

raining season is over in Malaysia and now come the hot shining sun.. i'm fine with the hot weather cause i can just on the aircond.. but suei suei today tak da electricity at home... HOT HOT HOT.. wondering how long it will take for the electricity to come and things that i can do without electricity had all been done and realise that i cant survive in such a hot environment, what i can do is only escape from the house and go the some place with aircond.. coooool air..

so here i am, Starbucks.. used the last RM10 voucher that i had cheated from my previous job, i bought a cup of cool ice blended green tea, with the cant survive without cooling pad laptop (even my laptop cannot take heat), and a file of F8 notes...

i am suppose to study for this coming June examination but i cant resist the temptation of wireless in here and started to youtube my BBT.. so bad.. but it will only takes my hour to load and watch it.. yes, i know one hour is tooo luxury for me to watch BBT right now as i should revise back the knowledge... argh.... i just give up for BBT.. i miss them.. =(

last thursday i talked to someone.. he just simply kidding that why dont we skip the class as i'm feeling really sleepy that day.. then i ask him skip d then what next? he answered go library study until 6pm lo (the class is at 10am)... i told him how can we give up the opportunity to gain new knowledge just to revise back our old knowledge? the worst is we paid to gain the new one.. not worth it man..

now i lose out the time to revise back my knowledge for BBT.. how stupid i am.. T.T

p/s :: not too bad, at least after i finished BBT and this post, i do study my F8.. see how i isolate my laptop.. STAY AWAY FROM ME, U DEVIL..

okay, gtg to scold little kids d.. ^^

losing the peace..

i feel like crying right now.. is mine fault for starting all this and now i even thought to end it.. i am so stupid for letting feelings guided my life and not using my brain to think.. it has been bother me for few days and i am losing my peace of mind.. shall i end everything before it is too late or let everything happen naturally? i really dont know what to do..


initially happiness is slowly turning into a burden.. did you ever have the feeling that no matter how hard you breath there will be no enough fresh air for your lung? where is all the 02? why do i only feel a big heavy stone that keep on pressing on me? everything is messed up just because of me..


i dont wish to hurt anyone.. i am just stupid for not thinking and regret for the decision that i made..

it's over.. (redrafted)

i had a funny birthday.. hope can post about it soon..

here i hint abit about the party : lung is really pretty and sexy.. ^^

thank to the organiser, wy, lung and ben..
thank to peter for holding the cake..
thank to flora, hong, j'ny, zul for singing the birthday song..
thank to nana and ck for hiding it from me so well..

i had a really happy birthday yesterday..

terima kasih, xie xie, arigato..

happy 21st.. aunty..

lung overslept again..

using lung's pc now to complain : HE OVERSLEPT AGAIN..

today we got Orange's class.. told him i will be here around 12pm and warn him not the overslept as when we chat is already 1am +, he not sleep yet.. his replied was so cool like : 12pm ler, wont overslept one la..

see here am i now... ding dong ding dong ring his bell for about 15 times then only he opened the gate for me.. come down with his skinny, sexy, fair upper, messy hair and half opened eye.. immediately i point to him and scream : YOU OVERSLEPT AGAIN..

this guy hor.. really useless already.. haha.. always wont keep his words one.. remember, not to take lung's word seriously... ^^.. chao, wanna go class d.. tata.. happy birthday to me.. ^^

officially 21..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YEN
HAPPY OLD DAY TO ME..

exactly one year ago, i decide to close my blog.. one year later, i'm here with a new blog.. from lonelyen turned to yen's life.. yet, still lonely.. i mean single la.. not that really lonely lonely..

so, 21 now.. *sigh*

how will i celebrate my birthday??

same as valentines day.. will be stuck in the class, with the same lecturer, same classmates, same classroom.. but this time will be a bit different.. lung, nana, wy will be there.. please dont let me be alone in the class gaining knowledge, i'm depressing now.. few friends ask me to skip the class.. shall i?? of course not.. i cannot skip any class just for a celebration.. knowledge is so important to me.. 21 already, had to be really smart and mature... i wish to be stupid and childish..


here is my 3 wish..

1. my hair grow faster.. long long long hair..
2. study smart and hard, please..
   
3. daddy healthy, mommy pretty, koko fatty, jie jie happy..
   

may all my friends are happy healthy and happy too.. always love and miss you all..


i guess alot of people may wish me get a bf faster.. haiz.. lung said i'm choosy, nana initially said is reasonable for all my request but after deeper discussion, she agreed with lung.. =.="

i'm just asking for a

older than me at least 3 years,
taller than me at least is 170cm,
not a tone deaf with nice voice,
the best is know how to play one music instrument, and
must have good sense of direction
non smoker, little bit drinker, environment friendly
swimmer (i cant swim, need someone to save me if anything happen to me in the water)..

so? is it really ridiculous?

update :: just now i'm abit depress about my birthday.. but after a phone call, i'm happy now.. ^^

AXN event..

last Saturday i got another job offered by Xuan again.. yes, Xuan is my supplier for money now other than my dad.. the job was an event of AXN, something like Amazing Race but this time it was a Amazing Race in One Utama.. i'm so excited for it cause this is the first time i'll be working with suet and wey..

the day before the event day which is a Friday, we had a briefing in 1u high street.. surprisingly Richard was there for the job too.. yey, another high kaki for the job, getting more fun.. ^^..

before we were separate to different groups and assigned to different task, the person in charge already told us that some people will need to be stay outdoor and may bring sunglasses and cap.. inside my heart i keep thinking of getting dark and my pimple may pop out like gasses in cola, scare scare.. it's time to choose group, they asking for one guy one girl, immediately i looked at R and give him a hint.. YES, he got it and straight away we put our hand up.. suet, ernest and peak kean another group, and pity wey alone...

i had to say that day i'm really lucky.. as i'm praying not to send me outdoor, they really let me be indoor, and i'm in most cool place in 1u, Camp5, the largest rock climbing center in Asia.. yoooohoooo.. excited, high 5 R.. as i'm getting into my excitement of being indoor, suet group had gone really 'lucky' to be in the baseball softball centre, the outdoor and wey will be at car park, not bad for her..

finish brief around 10, wanted to balik to BU house then later xuan asked wanna earn some extra income anot? help to cut something for tomorrow's event, RM50 per person.. immediately say YES..


cut, arrange, untied, tied, count..



when we finish, it was already 2.10am..



everyone was so sleep and tired..



and wey found a giant drumstick..



the event start on 2pm end on 7pm but we had to be there by 8am.. =.="

but you know malaysian, normally when they said 8am, normally it will be 9am.. this theory is not applicable on me, i'm always on time, unless i overslept.. haha..

we were there by 830am just to look at the band repeated practicing their song.. initially i'm quite exciting with it, you know leng cai drummer, rocker guitarist all that, but after listening almost 10 times to the same beat, it's getting annoying... sien..



everyone was so sien waiting with an empty stomach..



what will a group of going-to-be 21 years old youngster do when they get bored?
they imitate..

R celebrity twins brother.. you can find him in 1u new wing.. take a picture with him.. or maybe you can interpret the picture as before and after R..

finally out team leader had time for us and asked us gathered around, brief again then walked us to our station..


the Futsal..



the baseball softball center.. it was really hot there.. and the cool air moved.. had to do something to get some cool air..



Camp5... lots of photo.. ready??

see how sexy R is.. tooooo sexy.. hehe.. more sexy photo of R is coming soon.. be patient.. everyone love R..



trying climb.. easy..
jump or not to jump? that's scary.. looks nothing from here but from my view, look down, damn high, deep breath.. JUMP..




group pics..



too sexy R.. he's my model of the day.. soooo sexy..



Camp5 bottle... so cute..
see the cloud?? me and R were laughing there.. why? ask suet lo.. hehe..



lastly, group pic of axn..



all the too sexy one..

it's fun to work with them.. ^^