neh, i don really care..

attitude....

this is my new attitude..

neh, i dont care..

yeah, i may made mistake and u choose to be angry...

i think i do talk to u softly for few times...

and still u cant open up your heart and mind,

then i'll have to say :

neh, i dont really care...

although i do very care, but i will learn to have this kind of attitude now..

neh, i dont really care..

awaiting...

awaiting for the day u are back..

end up giving a chance to break down my emotion.

i don't know what am i holding on or waiting for.
it seem to be i got nothing to hold other than stupid memory.
it seems like im waiting for nothing as u never care.

i cant hold this anymore..
it is impossible for me to smile everyday yet bleeding deep inside when im alone or day dreaming.
i cant hold myself anymore...

宝贝，你还是那个宝贝吗????

预告.....

梦境又给我预告了........
又是一段没结果的暗恋....

梦神,
可以不要一次又一次的打碎我的梦吗??
可以不要让我如此的甜蜜沉醉在睡梦中吗??
可以让我真真实实的拥抱他吗??

这心动真的是得来不易啊....
但有时我会想, 您是在解救我, 避免我调入火坑吗??
我不懂...
但如此甜蜜的梦, 我希望会实现........

this is what he post...

My version of flirting is looking at someone I find attractive multiple times and hoping they are more brave than I am...




he is flirting on someone......... 

just a passer by.. come and go~~

i don't hate u.. because i know the existence of hate is because there is love..
i don't want to have that kind of feeling towards u anymore..
i may not deserve someone like you or better than u,
but at least i think i deserve someone that is serious with me.
'letting go something that i'm not holding ain't difficult' is what i keep telling myself.
i just need some times, social life, keep myself busy and non stop distraction.
yesterday i watched back the video, and i miss your arm..
it's sad that everything is just a memory now..

宝贝.... this is the last time i use this words....... for u...

i really hate mind game..
i dont like courting game..
lets make thing easy...
just bloody hell tell me how u feel towards me, and u may get me..
even if is not, we can still be friend.. awkward?? definitely no..
is just that easy..

love and hate.

who are u??
what are u to make me love and hate u at the same time??
why after u did those thing on me and just left like this??
how u manage to open the lock in my heart and left me miserable?
its not that i never try one sided love before, but why this time i felt more suffer than before?
why i miss u more than others?
why even when i'm smiling and laughing yet deep inside me is crying??
why i will just stare at things and just day dream about u?
why i feel something is missing when i see the bar?


宝贝, is what u used to call me..
我怕我会爱上你, is what u said to me..
我永远记得, is what u told me..
那, 我是你的什么, is what u ask me..

宝贝, 你怕你会爱上我, 但我已不知觉得动了情..
宝贝, 我希望永远与你度过你记得的那一天..
宝贝, 我要你是我的宝贝...........

但宝贝永远都不会知道惟有他是我的宝贝..... 宝贝, 这名词, 就只属于你...


i hate u.. for silently enter my world and grandly leave your shadow behind..
i hate u.. for leaving the doubt and coldness to me..
i hate u.. for being the key to open it, and left without locking it..


i hate myself for discovered it too late. .
i hate myself for not spending enough time with u..
i hate myself for loving and missing u...


again, i need to bury the love and search for a new one..
why, i always fall for the impossible one??

its 4am!!!!

oh god... almost 4am now and im still awake, blogging.. 

i think i had reach the maximum limit of exhaustion till cant sleep now.. do u ever has this kind of experience? 

i wonder why am i pushing myself so hard everyday.. what am i proving? who am i showing? 

more than 3 weeks i had not really sit down, relax my mind with a cup of hot chocolate..  exclude cherating.. haha.. 

i miss the day that i can sit in starbucks and read my novel with the hot chocolate.. 

awaiting the day to come..