this is how i miss u..

Vincent (Starry Starry Night) Lyrics

Starry starry night, paint your palette blue and grey
Look out on a summer's day with eyes that know the darkness in my soul
Shadows on the hills, sketch the trees and the daffodils
Catch the breeze and the winter chills, in colors on the snowy linen land

Now I understand what you tried to say to me
How you suffered for you sanity How you tried to set them free
They would not listen they did not know how, perhaps they'll listen now

Starry starry night, flaming flowers that brightly blaze
Swirling clouds in violet haze reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue
Colors changing hue, morning fields of amber grain
Weathered faces lined in pain are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand

Chorus:
For they could not love you, but still your love was true
And when no hope was left in sight, on that starry starry night
You took your life as lovers often do,
But I could have told you, Vincent,
This world was never meant for one as beautiful as you

Starry, starry night, portraits hung in empty halls
Frameless heads on nameless walls with eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the stranger that you've met, the ragged man in ragged clothes
The silver thorn of bloody rose, lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow

Now I think I know what you tried to say to me
How you suffered for you sanity How you tried to set them free
They would not listen they're not listening still
Perhaps they never will.

first interview

i made a stupid mistake during the interview..

the boss asked me : what's your plan when your result is out?

answered : to be honest, i want to join the big 4..

=.=

why la i'm so honest? where is all my bluffing skill?

i'm really sad now.. i really like the working environment and the working hours...

god god, please get me the job........

please............ @.@

亲爱的, 哭过就好了...

亲爱的,

尽情地哭吧.. 因为除了哭以外, 朋友们真的无可奈何..

除了陪着你过苦笑不得的日子, 没什么可做了.. 因为我懂劝导是废话..

如果我是你， 此刻的我是：

"不要告诉我,他是如何的无能, 无用, 倒胃, 狼心狗肺, 无情等等,

因为到目前为止我想到的是他的爱, 他的好, 他的美,

而我也只感受到我对他的爱, 想念及不舍和不能和他天长地久的痛..."

"失去了他， 不可惜… 祝福他， 找到了他的最爱， 因为我相信，他也想牵着我的手走一生，但感情是勉强不来， 他既然做了伤害我的选择， 那我希望他没错，别让我的泪白流， 别让我的痛白过.. 开心幸福的过日子，是我报答你这些日子来对我的爱与照顾.. 来生如果有机会遇见了你，请求你，确定了你的感情再来招惹我.."

天不作美， 伟大的’他’希望我尝试更多， 得到更好… 那我也只能默默地等待那天的到来 …

作为朋友，我唯一能做的是， 分享我的经历，陪着你， 听你说，和你一起哭…

朋友是会不离不弃的陪伴你， 但你也要争气的找回原来坚强的你…

哭吧， 尽情地哭吧… 哭了过后， 擦干泪痕， 倔强的告诉自己 ：我不哭了， 明天会更好…

情绪低落....

最近EQ好底哦... 但低的都是伤心的情绪， 怒得不多，就算有都是对陌生人...

努力的让自己开心，但就是有块石头不停的往心里压，压得我心理不平衡...

人生无常， 有时真的希望自己不要活得太老，因为残酷的现实我不欣赏，甜蜜的童话不存在..

眼泪不知不觉地流，是累了，或是泪了？

first time experience...

i went for fishing and prawning yesterday night with simon, cs, ah lua and ji dan!! excited!! fun!!

start fishing on 1am, end on 3am.. caught a tiny little tarapia.. okay, im not the one who caught it, tan jie got it but i'm the one who holding to rod, slowly turned "the dont know what that call".. haha.. and i know how to cast, im so proud of myself.. lol..

the whole 2 hours, we only caught that tiny little less than 200gram fish, everyone was depressed, praying the fish to be greedy but i guess they are too full that night.. lol.. so ching sin suggest we go for prawning..

yes!!!!!!

so prawning from 325 to 525am..

i caught a prawn without my notice.. =)

cs and ah lua did something really bad yesterday night.. no details of it as it is something 'really truly really bad', so i'll just summarize it as we 'caught' 4 big prawn, as big as lobster, or maybe it is lobster.. lol..

that's it.. my first time experience in fishing and prawning.

i think i love it, much more than clubbing.. =)

牙套妹...

就叫我钢牙妹吧!!!!

really very suei!!!

what the hell.. in 6 days, i have been paying extra for nothing for alot of thing!!!! i think i really need to go pray pray d..

friday:

cancel bank draft, charged me 15 pound.. bought new bank draft, another 100pound plus service charge rm7..

reach home check obu, required to pay online!!!! wtf.. i need to cancel another bank draft??????

30 pound and rm7 burned!!!

saturday and sunday:

is a ordinary day not until i find out something on monday!! then only i i realize i paid extra..

the only money i paid is rm9 for parking on sat, rm3 on sun..

monday:

when to pasar pagi to buy breakfast for class from 10am-6pm in kl, then tuition class till 9pm..

brought rm5 out, happily thinking to buy a nasi lemak rm1 and some kuih-muih for another rm2.. so i brought extra money..

'nasi lemak satu'

digging money from jeans pocket.. front pocket, ilek.. back pocket, ilek.. front back left right, ilek!!! wtf, where is my money?? checked my car, nope, gone.. dropped rm5, left rm1 in wallet for nasi lemak.. =(

so, just now i mention sat is ordinary day until i found out something.. PARKING.. with a chop, they will recognise u as student and charge rm3 per entry.. so i paid rm6 extra for saturday hourly charged.. wtf!!!! the chop is freely available for u at the corner to chop it... why i didnt find that out in saturday??

so total lost on monday = rm5 + rm6 = rm11

tuesday:

the day to submit obu... =)

happily go and bind it then send through courier.. paid rm134 for it..

on the way back, read the check list again.. SHIT!! SLS words must more than 1800, mine is only 1700+ words.. omg!!! quickly grab pendrive, go to dhl to take back my obu then wanting to print the front page.. charged me rm3 per colour page, amended 2 pages, rm6.. sent it back to dhl..

later on,

happily chatting in facebook, a friend ask me bout obu..

"Oh ok. They told me that mine also thurs will reach. Hmm. How much DHL charge u? They charge me rm107.20 using student card. Without student card is rm134."

WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i dont wan to calculate my loss d... i only know i need to go and pray now...