last year, august 13th, i post this on facebook..

病好了，不能再撒娇说头疼，没力了。
记得有句话，人生有几天？3 天 ：昨天，今天和明天。
一直的逃避也不是办法，因为今天会是过去，明天总会到来。
一再的明天又明天，只会原地踏步。
有时候在想，原地踏步不好吗？没有不好，但就会跟不上脚步而远远​的被抛在后头，因为世界不断地在进步，也有可能会从原地踏步变成​退步。

开始要为未来打算，为未来拼搏了。真讨厌....

am i improving? i don't know.. i only know i'm pk-ing...

tonight, i missing u, again.....

又想起了你.....

想起了我们相处的时刻， 想起了我自以为是的感觉， 想起了我的自作多情.....

今晚，就让光良品冠的歌声来平复我的心....

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胡思乱想

胡思乱想又过了一夜　思念的疑问并没有解决
我又胡乱想过了一夜　情感的东西　是否需要感觉

也许我不知道　我是真不明了　人对情感的渴求　是否那么重要

也许我不知道　你那儿最好　让我情牵忘也忘不了
也许我不知道　你真的那么好　我的思念你又明了多少
我胡思乱想

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你真得那么的好吗？ 你对我的思念又明了多少？

你是否知道有个女孩默默的傻傻的思念着你吗？

silent..

i remain silent not because i dont care

i remain silent not because i dont know

i remain silent not because i dont have feeling

i remain silent not because i'm idiot

i remain silent not because i'm caring

i remain silent not because i'm understanding

i remain silent not because i'm deaf and blind

i remain silent not because i'm always all by myself

i remain silent not because i'm okay with it

i remain silent not because i get used to it

i remain silent because i try to be caring

i remain silent because i try to be understanding

i remain silent because i try to be idiot

i remain silent because i try to be deaf and blind

i remain silent because i try to get use to it

i remain silent because i need to be 'all by myself''.......

please handle me with care because im really fragile..

but seems to be no one notice it..

我最亲爱的, 你过得怎么样?

在这夜深人静的夜里竟然想起了你....

我最亲爱的, 你过得怎么样? 我很想知道你的近况, 但我怕... 对于你, 内心里全是恐惧, 你该是我的天堂,我的肩膀, 但如今全都变质了... all by myself 已变我的名言了.... 从前的依赖到现在的独立, 我从新鲜到厌倦到想念; 新鲜于我终于可以独立了, 厌倦于现实的压力, 想念于依赖你的安全感....

阿妹的那首歌已变了我对你的主题曲, 每每听到都想哭....... 看到周围的不幸, 都令我感到害怕, 我已变成了个很情绪化的人, 都是因为你........

当某人告诉我你的近况, 我都叫他停, 我不想懂, 不想知道.....

虽然我想你, 但我害怕你, 更有点的生气你, 再有点的同情你.. 这复杂的情绪, 你懂吗?

this is how i miss u..

Vincent (Starry Starry Night) Lyrics

Starry starry night, paint your palette blue and grey
Look out on a summer's day with eyes that know the darkness in my soul
Shadows on the hills, sketch the trees and the daffodils
Catch the breeze and the winter chills, in colors on the snowy linen land

Now I understand what you tried to say to me
How you suffered for you sanity How you tried to set them free
They would not listen they did not know how, perhaps they'll listen now

Starry starry night, flaming flowers that brightly blaze
Swirling clouds in violet haze reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue
Colors changing hue, morning fields of amber grain
Weathered faces lined in pain are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand

Chorus:
For they could not love you, but still your love was true
And when no hope was left in sight, on that starry starry night
You took your life as lovers often do,
But I could have told you, Vincent,
This world was never meant for one as beautiful as you

Starry, starry night, portraits hung in empty halls
Frameless heads on nameless walls with eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the stranger that you've met, the ragged man in ragged clothes
The silver thorn of bloody rose, lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow

Now I think I know what you tried to say to me
How you suffered for you sanity How you tried to set them free
They would not listen they're not listening still
Perhaps they never will.

first interview

i made a stupid mistake during the interview..

the boss asked me : what's your plan when your result is out?

answered : to be honest, i want to join the big 4..

=.=

why la i'm so honest? where is all my bluffing skill?

i'm really sad now.. i really like the working environment and the working hours...

god god, please get me the job........

please............ @.@

亲爱的, 哭过就好了...

亲爱的,

尽情地哭吧.. 因为除了哭以外, 朋友们真的无可奈何..

除了陪着你过苦笑不得的日子, 没什么可做了.. 因为我懂劝导是废话..

如果我是你， 此刻的我是：

"不要告诉我,他是如何的无能, 无用, 倒胃, 狼心狗肺, 无情等等,

因为到目前为止我想到的是他的爱, 他的好, 他的美,

而我也只感受到我对他的爱, 想念及不舍和不能和他天长地久的痛..."

"失去了他， 不可惜… 祝福他， 找到了他的最爱， 因为我相信，他也想牵着我的手走一生，但感情是勉强不来， 他既然做了伤害我的选择， 那我希望他没错，别让我的泪白流， 别让我的痛白过.. 开心幸福的过日子，是我报答你这些日子来对我的爱与照顾.. 来生如果有机会遇见了你，请求你，确定了你的感情再来招惹我.."

天不作美， 伟大的’他’希望我尝试更多， 得到更好… 那我也只能默默地等待那天的到来 …

作为朋友，我唯一能做的是， 分享我的经历，陪着你， 听你说，和你一起哭…

朋友是会不离不弃的陪伴你， 但你也要争气的找回原来坚强的你…

哭吧， 尽情地哭吧… 哭了过后， 擦干泪痕， 倔强的告诉自己 ：我不哭了， 明天会更好…