Tired of...

Everything!!!!! Nothing go smooth in life.. Tired with the struggling.. Tired with the tightness.. Tired with the stagnant.. Tired with the complain.. Tired with the changes.. Tired with the failure.. Tired with the happiness.. Tired with the worried.. Tired tired tired!!!!! Can I run away from everything and just be alone in elsewhere? Can I can I can I?????? Aaaaaaarrrrrgggghh... 

Just not as tough as I thought I am... 

An oppurtunity

A chance to have a change in work, in life.. Chance given, will I shine like a diamond? I got no confident at all, keep having the screw up mindset.. I guess the schlumberger interview really killed my confident, my ego.. 

Whatever..

It's not that I'm counting the small money but i only have rm350 for my food n entertainments for a month yet now u slowly eating that up too... It's not that I want to count small money with u but why today?? Why must it be today that make me think that is over limit, ridiculous, unforgivable?? I'm just hoping for a simple life.. Not a luxury one.. I can survive with AFA.. I can carry a no brand bag.. I can work extra hours plus tuition.. I can exhaust myself till mentally n physically breakdown just to make your life easy.. I know u will do the same.. But I just don't understand how u do, what u do and what u trying to do.. When u crying to me n ask for freedom, actually I'm doing to same deep in my heart.. 

Do not tell me life is like that one ma cause if it is, I think life is bullshit.. I rather eat shit everyday.. 

快回来吧..

这几天在发春啊... Lol..
开始不明白自己的心了...
是动了真情或是单身太久了呢？
宝贝，再这样下去，我就会失去你了..
失去想你的资格，失去爱你的欲望..
理智告诉自己那是不可能，但总是克制不了自己的眼睛去注意他，控制不了自己的心不去想他...

宝贝，我仍然希望会是你..
告诉我，能吗？你我有个共识吗？

neh, i don really care..

attitude....

this is my new attitude..

neh, i dont care..

yeah, i may made mistake and u choose to be angry...

i think i do talk to u softly for few times...

and still u cant open up your heart and mind,

then i'll have to say :

neh, i dont really care...

although i do very care, but i will learn to have this kind of attitude now..

neh, i dont really care..

awaiting...

awaiting for the day u are back..

end up giving a chance to break down my emotion.

i don't know what am i holding on or waiting for.
it seem to be i got nothing to hold other than stupid memory.
it seems like im waiting for nothing as u never care.

i cant hold this anymore..
it is impossible for me to smile everyday yet bleeding deep inside when im alone or day dreaming.
i cant hold myself anymore...

宝贝，你还是那个宝贝吗????

预告.....

梦境又给我预告了........
又是一段没结果的暗恋....

梦神,
可以不要一次又一次的打碎我的梦吗??
可以不要让我如此的甜蜜沉醉在睡梦中吗??
可以让我真真实实的拥抱他吗??

这心动真的是得来不易啊....
但有时我会想, 您是在解救我, 避免我调入火坑吗??
我不懂...
但如此甜蜜的梦, 我希望会实现........